Musings of an average girl

We have all received that lecture at a point in our lives. "Hold on, don't give up! Don't let go!" Sometimes, we receive this advice on relationship, a dream, a diet, or for some of us, a failing marriage. But, is it really worth it? Holding on. How do you hold on to dry sand? How do you hold on to oil? How do you hold on to water? How do you hold on to a mirage? You see it in front of you, you strive to get to it, and realise it's moved forward.    At times, this advice has us holding on to someone that has long left. It has us holding on to an empty shell, the substance has left, and we are still holding on to the shaft. It could have us holding on to something we have left, we have no interest in, but because we want commendation, 'she held on for so long' 'he didn't give up' 'he held on, never let go' 'she is so dedicated', we hold on, when we want to be somewhere else.     At other times, we may not have a backup plan, ...

I really do not know how I spent 2 years being hurt and sad and feeling sorry for myself because of a failed relationship. But, you pricked my interest, I had thought you were my miracle from heaven, I was so happy! I walked with a spring in my step. I thought you felt the same. I mean you smiled, opened doors for me, we went everywhere together. Remember that day in the club, where that girl was trying to get to know you, and you told her you don't know if that will go down well with your girlfriend here? You came and gave me the legendary back hug. That was a defining moment for me and since you said we are just friends, I found I practically lost that spring, that smile, that inner joy. I suddenly feel very lonely. I do not know how I survived 2 years. It's only been a month since you introduced your girlfriend to your "best female buddy" who is "practically one of the guys for you" and its like the sun set and refused to rise. It's been perpetual nig...